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hmm have you ever feel that you are really really sad, or really confused about something but you cant tell it to anybody around you?
that's what i feel now, i couldn't tell anybody because i didn't know what's wrong with me.
and I'm sick of it ! being the one who always have unsteady mood . i cannot change it, i want to, but i just can't.

and today
i was so down until i heard his voice, just simple question but it's a drug for me, my cure :p
even my friends cannot settled me down, but him, i dont know, his eyes really really peaceful when i look at him.
maybe this sound like freak or "gombal" thing but it's true . i comfort when i near him.and i always look for him even i dont wanna see him.
but what happened today is not becaouse of him. it's because something else that still i cant tell.

oh my god, i can't lie to myself that I, i dont know what to say, love? need? i dont know ! this feeling is slowly disappear, but sometimes it's deeper than usual.
many cute guys out there but when i'm with him it's just him in my mind.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh gombalnyaaaa gue !!